Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Some Thoughts... at end... at start....

Not getting time for blog since month... since I resigned.... :( .. at the time of resignation, I thought my manager would not assign new task and I will get free time to enjoy last days at Pune. get time for gym, get time for movies... but nothing like that happened due to crunch situation in project.... now only 1 days left to Persistent, still I have list to complete few tasks and bugs... aah eArray (my project's name)...
I m moving to Mumbai now, will join JP Morgan on 10th... but don't know why. not feeling much excitement for new phase of my professional career.... comparing this when I had joined Persistent, almost 3 years back... at that time salary was the issue at my first company, so first excitement of getting salary on time.. :) .. then big company's excitement, Persistent has its own premises... coming to office, entering Persistent gave me proud feeling that time... that yes I had achieved something in life.. I have some worth.. definitely boost my confidence at that time.... since then.. lot has changed.... me n persistent both.... :) .... today, if I see and analyze my work at eArray... I m not feeling much proud of it.... did lots of mistakes.. blunders and I learn a lot here... I feel Persistent gives me more than I did for them.... its like I feel proud for being employee of Persistent bt Persistent would not feel proud of me... its like don't ask what your country do for u.. ask what u did for your country.. :) ......
When I resigned, manager ask me why.. I said salary.. she said, In terms salary, I can't do anything. if you have any other issue.. tell me.. I said no... she said ok.. n its all done... last week one of team mate resigned.. manager ask him why.. he said salary.. she said... wait for mid term appraisal... hmmmmmmmmmmm..... this is shows the worth of employee in company....... :( ...
Actually .. I had never given 100% to this project... may be because of domain.. I always thought I would not like to work here for longer in this project and may be that's the reason I was never fully... committed.... but yes.. with new company, I will try to give 100%.. not only 100%.. more than 100% and than lets see.. I am worth or not.......
and the reason I m not feeling much excitement is not because of all this... its because of city.. Mumbai... aah... when I was studying.. I had a dream to do job in Mumbai... and see.. God bless me... my dream is going to be true... but now.. I m in love with Pune's weather... and may be my rented flat.... :) .... I knew I will never get heaven like weather (I m comparing here Pune's weather to Mumbai/Surat/Ahemdabad)... and flat...(one of my friend said.. flat I have here will easily costs me 25k there...) and one more thing.. I can go surat on every weekend from there... I m worrying... what I will do there for 2 days.. every weekend.. here in Pune.. all my friends have leave on sat-sun so no issues but there at surat, all my friends r doing their business.... they don’t have leave even on Sunday.. forget about Saturday.. hmmm.... problem hai....
but ya one thing is sure... after 1-2 years of Mumbai experience, if I move to any other city of India.. I will feel ultimate calmness and peace..... :) .... ones you experienced the worst... U will feel better for even ok things letter... so that’s the major inspiration for me...
so get ready for hard life there.. (kutte jaisi.. . :) ).........
and yes, friends.. get ready for blogs of my Mumbai experience...

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